Saturday, December 27, 2014


"Don't hold together what must fall apart. The familiar life crumbles so the new life can begin." -Bryant McGill

This was my fear in the familiar; in my marriage, in my relationship after my marriage…however, I've finally started listening to what my fear was. The fear of being alone and that never thinking that I deserved the best. I figured out that I was really afraid of being lonely but if you love yourself, you are never alone. I also realized that I do deserve the best, whether someone wants to give me the best parts is up to themselves is up to them and I can't blame myself for wanting more. I should never settle, meaning that I felt I wasn't worthy of the best but I am and I'm figuring that out. I was comfortable in the familiar but living in that, out of fear. I underlined liar because thats what we tell ourselves when we are living in the familiar, lies. Stop being a liar to yourself. Love yourself and know that you are worthy and deserving of all happiness.

Namaste my loves

Saturday, December 13, 2014


In life I think we are truly blessed if we have 'aha' moments and can fully allow them to resonate and be observed…it happened and I wanted to share. I see a psychotherapist who is lovely, Dorothy Ratusney and we often work on may things but yesterday she encouraged me to refocus on my ideal mate list. I had two observations; one I don't want a mate, at least not right now, I want a friend. Second, who and what I am, is what I want in that mate or partner…so for now, I am my ideal mate! :)

Now truly looking at yourself and the things that you bring to your relationships, are the nitty-gritty and changing any of the things that aren't optimal are the bits that take courage. To face the fears that you have within yourself and to not hide from them. My past relationships had brought up insecurities that I thought I dealt with long again but when in the chaos, I became the chaos. Take refuge in a calm center and a heart full of gratitude.

To quote The Yamas and Niyamas by Deborah Adele, "Contentment is falling in love with your life".